What a difference from a year ago... I never thought it would be like this. I never imagined my life would be here, and I would be the way I am... I am so changed...

We were as one
For a moment EVER in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be here
So I'll let you fly
'Cause I know in my heart
Our love will never die
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

Uh.... oops.

Im an idiot.

I've never felt this good in my whole life! And it's all thanks to you! <3

Ok... not to brag, BUT.... My life is officially PERFECT!

I have the most wonderful, amazing, boyfriend anyone could EVER ask for.
I have a new awesome ____.

AND....

I got accepted to the college I wanted to go to the most!

= PERFECT!

<3

After all this time my heart still burns for you
If you don't know by now that you're my only one
Take a look inside me and watch my heartstrings come undone
I know I promised you forever
Is there no stronger word I can use
To reassure you when the storm is raging outside
You're my safest place to hide
You see colors no one else can see
In every breath you hear a symphony
You understand me like nobody can
I feel like my soul unfolding like a flower blooming

Im angry. Very angry. It doesnt help that im sick and feel like crap either. I think that is making me even more angry! But I deserve to be angry, so its ok. I wonder how many times i just said that word. I am going to bed now because im SICK and ANGRY! Bye.

I love waking up to your voice,
it makes everything ok.

These words linger in my mouth,
on the tip of my tongue,
they're dying to get out,
but too afraid to be murmured.

Thank you.

Im such a stupid little girl...

I couldn't ask for more...

Last night and this morning were freaking awesome! I don't want to get all up in our business, but this morning was really cool cuz i got to get up at 4:15 and take Robert to work. It was awesome being out that early in the morning and just chilling. I went to Starbucks and got coffee and a criossant, and it made me think about how it's gonna be when I can move out and do whateve I want, whenever I want! I can't wait!

That's all for now.

<3

Cool... I went to Taco Bell tonight after work to get something to eat because I almost passed out because I hadn't eaten all day, and I asked for hot sauce, which I NEVER do, but I got one (cuz they have little sayings on them...) that says: "The feeling is mutual" and I just thought that was kinda ironic.

haha. I also got one that says: "Will you marry me" but I'm not even gonna go there. lol.

Anyway... work was gay tonight. I hope tomorrow isnt as shitty as tonight was. Actually... my whole day pretty much sucked. I was so mad/upset from last night that I didn't talk the entire day at school. I knew if I did something bad would happen. I had to talk at work though, and I was doing fine, until this [insert cuss word] came up and was like MEH MEH MEH! Then I got mad. And Sol kept getting mad at me for the comments I was making. So now Im not going to say anything I dont need to say. (At work at least.)

I think tomorrow/today, Im gonna go to the gym. I really need to work out all my frustration, and also "loose weight" or w/e. Apparently being "anorexic" isn't going to work. (And Im not that... because I do eat, just not that much, and not until like the end of the day.)

I need sleep, and there's no one to talk to anyway, so bye.

UGH!!!!!!!!!! I am SUCH an IDIOT! Someone please slap me in the face!

Can you please tell me what is going on? I am thoroughly confused right now...

This weekend was AMAZING! It was the best weekend in my entire existance! It couldn't have turned out more perfect! Oh... except for the part when I was almost dying in the morning after doing stuff. lol.

Friday... went up to Seans, hung out, tried to go to this college party but I got scared cuz everyone was spazing so we went back. Thank god we left cuz the cops came later. lol. Played collegeopoly then got into the "good stuff". Had about 2 and a half bottles of the "good stuff" then couldnt stand up properly. I defnitely got a sandal thrown at my head and woke up with a bruise on my leg and arm and my neck and ear hurt really bad. Then I fell back asleep in this little chair and that was really uncomfortable but sleep = good.
Saturda... went to eat on campus, were gonna leave but then i got really mad so we stayed and tried to get tickets. It was awesome! We ended up getting tickets for all of us, and we got to take these season ticket holders spots because they never got there, even though this cop was being an ass and not letting us go up there. (but we snuck up there when he was gone). We (UF) totally won 42 - 0.
Saturday Night... Went back and got stuff, left, totally passed Nathan and Grav even though we left like an hour after them! Got food, I fell asleep (sleep = good). Got home, had a nice night <3 then went home home and went to bed. Woke up at 1 and now im here and i have to go to work in an hour and that really sucks.

We totally have to do another trip! But next time it has to last longer. <3 you guys :)

You're crappy. I just wanted to let you know that. I trusted you with something that was really important to me, and really expensive! and what did you do? You freaking broke it! Then you couldnt even tell me, you had to be an ass about it! How about you try being honest for ONCE in your life? Oh thats right... you CANT! Whatever! Im so over this crap, and I will never shed a single tear for you anymore. You're so not worth it! I just realized that today when I was sitting in the pouring rain waiting for you... why am I wasteing my time? Im not though. Not anymore. Thanks. Bye.

Oh... and to this other person, even though I didnt get to see you that much today, it was still awesome for the amount of time I did get to see you. You always make me smile, you always make me happy. Thank you.

AND OMG... Thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for getting me a present. slash 2 presents. You're freaking amazing and that really meant a lot to me.

I can't wait until this weekend its going to be awesome.

OH AND GUESS WHAT EVERYONE... I GOT ACCEPTED TO UNF! Hellllllz yeah! Im not stupid!

When I heard my phone ring I thought it would just be another person. But it wasnt. It wasnt just any person... it was THE person! The only person I wanted to talk to today actually called me, to wish me a happy birthday. I never thought this would come, and though I had to practically beat it out of him, and cry my eyes out to get it, it happened.

The only present I wanted was for you to notice me, and you did. That made me feel so good, you have no idea what it meant me. Honestly... you never have to do another thing for me again (not that you ever will) because just that one hello was good enough for me.

Thank you.